If you were alone

its windy tonight
the chimes ringing
moving with borrowed life from the wind
singing a song to the world around them

triptrance audio files playing from small speakers
the sound that keeps my mind focused
the frequency that allows it wander
a beat that makes me want to move

surrounded by darkness
clouds hide the stars
it is midnight after all

sitting here in my own little world
fingers slapping away a this keyboard
this new world of brain dumping
a comfortable place for me to be

why am i so comfortable to sit here alone?
just me, myself and i
the three of us get along just fine
we are able to express our selves, unhindered

digital freedom

i guess the good things about being alone
no one to bother you
nobody to act for
no one to look at you funny
then again, the bad part is
youre alone

is it good to be alone?
sometimes
all the time?
no

i had a psych patient that told me once
"if i stop taking my meds
everyone goes away..."
he says his halucination is this
"the world empties
i am completely alone"

how long could a human mind handle that?
a day? a week? a month?
he did it everyday for about 6 years....
what would that do?
if you were absolutely convinced
that no one was around?

looking at this mans history
was a good indication
the things he had been picked up for...

walking about in a mall naked...
going on a test drive in a new car
but driving it to his home and walking
to his door with the keys....
unable to see or hear the sales guy demanding his keys back....
seeing something in a store he wanted
not seeing anyone else in the whole store
he picks it up and just walks out...

what would you do in a given situation
if you were convinced no one would see
or no one would ever know?
would you live differently?

if you say yes
then those things that you would do
undiscovered by those around you
are a very real version of who you really are
what your character is really like....

makes you think... doesnt it?